I can't believe it.... November already

Is it just me or did this year just fly right by? Time is such a delicate thing. We are all here on limited time, and in that time we have so many wishes and dreams to accomplish. What are your dreams? What are your wishes? Outside of what has to be done... What is it that makes your heart happy? Make time for these things! It's so important. This is our fuel. Don't ever feel bad for needing to fuel your soul! If you're anything like me, being a people pleaser and giving fuel to my soul don't come hand in hand, and maybe it shouldn't. We need to put ourselves first, than others. Helping others fuels my heart but there has to be limitations so you or I don't get burnt out.
When we get burnt out we start acting out of character and this is when mistakes can be made, and we all know mistakes have consequences. I can think of times I've been overly stressed, and then I over compensate and do something irresponsible, to make up for the deficit I'm feeling. I hope this blog can motivate you to look within and take an inventory of what makes you drive, and do just that!
We each have a beautiful fire within us, don't let any force in that tries to extinguish your fire. Search for those that support or ignite that!
Thanks for reading

Juggling on a balance beam

My life often feels like a 3 ring circus, and since I'm going to be accountable, I will own the reality that I create this circus.To top it off I'm so hard on myself and the expectations I have of what I can get done I take my circus and get on that balance beam. Trying to make it all happen. The craft mom, gourmet chef, health freak, active humanitarian, church going, top employee, sister, friend, daughter, I can't even breathe because the list goes on and on. That sounds crazy doesn't it. I mean think about it, back in the 50's when women stayed home with the kids and had dinner made by the time their husband came home, they didn't run a taxi service they ran nightly to and from sports, the pressure from a long day at work, responsibility for the checks and balances. It is easy to look on social media and feel down about everything you're not doing, because you are watching glorified specialties in your face. I have come to realize everyone has issues, and struggles, and we are all going to put our best foot forward and only our best foot to others. So today I breathe, knowing I'm doing the best I can, and I'm doing a pretty good job, and I bet you too are. We need to live in the reality that we are doing the best we can, considering each of our circumstances. Thanks for reading.

Back at it.

I've been wanting to get back to blogging for awhile now. I have had so much going on, I really didn't know where to start. I didn't feel I was in a good place to have others read my thoughts, or that anyone person out there could possibly relate to my predicament, because lets face it, I really have done it this time. However, after pondering and reflecting I decided that being in this vulnerable spot would create a footprint for me. Something to come back and look to after I go through this journey I've set out on. So tonight I start with this, I sit here vulnerable, not knowing what the future holds, what relationships I will grow with or apart from. I question myself so many times it's unreal. It's as if I have two different sides to me. The values I was brought up with, and the current me, who I've become and I struggle between the two. I want to put my foot down and say I will not tolerate certain things, yet my core values teach me that family is everything and I need to endure the toxic relationships, it is a part of the package. Recently I have found the courage through my life coach and some of my closest confidants to take this step to distance myself from toxic relationships. This has not been easy, as my guilt has weighed so heavily that it can be hard to breathe at times, but here I am, breathing...
I'm hurt because of the consequences that comes with cutting off certain toxic relationships. In my relam it means severing one of the healthiest, strongest relationships, and that is devastating. But here I am with two questions... What can you live with? What can you leave behind? I'm still figuring this out. Until next time, but I promise next time won't be as long.